January 14th, 2010

Today was Breeana's 14th birthday, So I didn't personally take a picture from today, but I will retrieve one from my grandma of my sister's party. That's pretty much all I have to say today. I'm spending time with my mommy and watching some quality NCIS. :]

January 13th, 2010

Ok so I totally forgot to write in this last night...but I did have a whole day of work, then went out dancing, AND THEN watched a pretty good ninja movie. So by the time I went to bed it only took about four minutes for me to be out cold. But I did get a really cute picture of Linda and I at the dance! :D

January 12th, 2010

Again, I'm a failure and haven't gotten today's picture from my phone to my computer...but I promise it will happen tomorrow. At my house I get very dodgy service and can't send pictures, and have yet to be to town since yesterday afternoon. But today was very relaxing. I spent the day at home watching NCIS, reading, and spending time with my family. Today's topic: Have you ever made an important life decision (such as where to work or attend school) based on purely emotional factors, even though you knew it was not the best choice for you? Would you do it again? The answer: Yes. I know it won't seem like much to most of you, but for me I can honestly say that it changed my life completely. When I was younger I was a very talented and aspiring young cheerleader. Not "high school" cheerleading, but hard core, competitive, very intense cheerleading. At one point in my career the gym I was a member of was bought out and our whole team was left to find other gyms. The on my mother chose just happened to be one where NONE of my teammates decided to go, so I felt completely alone and out of place. I was having troubles making friends and really being accepted into the team so my mother gave me two choices: to either go out there and force them to be my friends, or to quit. I ended up quitting and it was probably the worst decision I ever made. I haven't cheered competitively since, and I thoroughly believe that decision changed the course of my life. To be honest, Sometimes I wish I had done it differently....

January 11th, 2010

Oh wow. Today was pretty good I suppose. I feel better after cleaning for HOURS. but cleaning makes me feel more organized and helps me to relieve stress. I have decided that these blog posts have been boring, so I'm going to start talking about random topics from a website that helps cure writers block. :] The topic for today: If you could choose only two foods to eat for the rest of your life, what would they be and why? How soon would you grow tired of them? Well...I think that if I had to pick two, I'd go with salad...complete with ranch, tomatoes, carrots...the works. I would also choose a hamburger with lettuce, tomato and ketchup. With those two foods I would have everything necessary in life. buuut I would probably get tired of them in about a week. So there is your random fact about me...in case you wanted one. The picture for today is currently being photoshopped, because it SUCKED at first. so I'll put it on here soon. :]

January 10th, 2010

Ok, so being 12:13 am, it's technically tomorrow...but that's ok. I haven't gone to bed yet, so to me it's still today. and today was INFINITELY better than yesterday...I had an amazing day at work, a wonderful lunch with my best friend Kstann, and hung out with good people after work. So last night, after I made that post, Andy and I spent about two hours talking. I feel like it was more of a chance for him to get his feelings out to someone, and it was just conveniently me. But the two of us got a lot of things out in the open and I feel like we understand each other a little bit more. Although we're still kind of not sure about the whole situation...I think? Anyways, I managed to get two pictures taken today instead of one, to make up for yesterday, and I feel like this is completely acceptable.

TODAY I BOUGHT THIS THING THAT CUTS SANDWICHES INTO DINOSAURS!

January 9th, 2010

Today....ultimately sucked. This morning wasn't so bad...I slept in, woke up, and was able to get ready in no hurry at all. I took some pictures that I had taken to the person I had taken them for, got some Creekside Coffe which is SO delicious. I haven't had it in months and it made my morning/early afternoon. I spent a few hours at Andy's. I watched him play video games and then we watched Up In the Sky (GREAT movie, btw) and that was always fun. Like I've said before, I'm pretty crazy about this kid...but then when I left he seemed sort of down, so I texted him about it and he replied telling me that 1) he's not over his ex...which I totally understand. and 2) that even if he was, him and I just weren't going to happen...which I don't understand at all. I'm pretty torn up about it, to tell the truth. Ultimately it's my fault for being stupid and thinking that I was good enough for someone so awesome, but alas, I overestimated myself yet again.

January 8th, 2010

Mmmm. Today was nice and relaxing! I slept in til about noon...then put on some clothes and headed on up the hill to take pictures of our wrecked dump truck. We're planning on using the pictures to determine if the body shop can fix it without having to take the truck in. I had to go down to my Grammy's house to have the right equiptment to get the pictures from my camera onto a disk, seeing as how my computer doesn't have an SD drive...I ended up hanging with Grammy, Poppi, and Hopper for about 5 hours, which is always a blast :D Then I came home and painted a baller design on my soon to be mailbox!

Then some quality time was spent with my little brother, playing rock band. I'm sure tomorrow I'll get around to going to town and doing something relatively productive. :]

January 7th, 2010

Now for the blog about today! Today was quite interesting. Woke up at Will and Linda's and had a pretty lazy morning. We basically just sat around and talked and laughed and had a good time. I went to my mom's and took a shower and just relaxed. I got to see Scott today, which is good because he's leaving for Alaska tomorrow. He's in the army, stationed in Alaska, and has been home for Christmas. I love him a lot and I am definitely glad I got to see him one last time before he left. Which is where today's picture comes from. Then the kids came home and I took them to meet up with my mom. My mom and Kellie went to TJ Maxx, while Brandond and I went to GameStop, Game Crazy, Borders, and Carl's Junior to spend up all of their christmas gift cards. I even got a few books at Borders myself...I just couldn't resist. ;] Brandon and I then met up with my mom and Kellie and I stayed to watch part of her basketball practice and have some quality discussions with my mother. Now I'm spending some time at home with my family and enjoying my life. <3

January 6th, 2010

Wow....I'm not quite sure how I got so far behind...So this blog is going to be about yesterday, seeing as how I didn't have time to write in this yesterday. So as for Wednesday the 6th, it was an amazing day. I sat around in my pajamas until about 3 in the afternoon, went out and played with the horses and cows, and then spent some quality time with Breeana and Dakota. I then got an invite to go out dancing with my friends, so I got ready in a hurry and off I went. Dancing was AMAZING. I ran into Liz, Jessie, Conlin, and Denver there...and I completely plan on going every week from now on. I then spent the night at Will and Linda's. It was quite a bit of fun. :D I desperately wish I would have gotten a picture or so while dancing, but I totally forgot. but I did get some good shots while hanging out at the barn. This is a slightly more artsy picture than I usually post, but more my style. This is Shadow the horse.

January 5th, 2010

So, last night I got home very late and was very tired and didn't get to post anything before I went to sleep...but I got up first thing this morning to post about yesterday. So yesterday was the most boring day at work...ever. But Ashley and I had a dicussion about the house and the paint and all of that. Jay got me paint chips that I haven't seen yet, but am excited to. After work I went to my husband Trevor's house. Yesterday was his birthday so I hung out with his family while he opened presents and then we continued with our Tuesday Movie Night, as always. Last night we watched Fred Clause. Then I drove home and went straight to bed. Good story, right? ;]

January 4th, 2010

Hmm. Today was interesting. A loooong day at work. 10am - 7pm with only one sitting all day. But luckily I had a book. I read the entire novel "Whip It" and am SO EXCITED to see the movie. I'm sure it's outstanding. I loved the book. It reminds me that I need to get on buying tickets for the next few bouts. Roller derby is absolutely fantastic and I can't wait til I'm old enough to be in a league! I looooove going to bouts and it is most definitely my new favorite past-time. Also, my other half, Kristan D'ann, came to see me at work and we talked for what must have been about an hour and a half, which is where today's picture comes from. I had Local Bois for lunch...always a plus. Chad called, and he absolutely makes my day. Him and I were always close as kids, but now that we're older, and have cell phones that allow us to talk on a regular basis, him and I have become significantly closer. After work I headed over to Jon and Jays. Jay and I had some serious heart to heart conversations which I feel definitely helped clear some of the smoggy air that had been lingering around there. We then started to talk about paint colors for my house. He works at Sherwin-Williams and is going to seriously hook me up. I think this Saturday he's going to come out to the house and bring some color swatches and we'll decide on all of the colors for sure. I can't wait to actually start living there :D :D :D Today is the first time I've actually used MY laptop as opposed to my mom's...and looking through everything on here is making me feel rather nostalgic. I feel like I need a new computer for a new start...and to just leave this one be to act as almost a scrapbook of my high school life. On another note; I still have that darn boy ridiculously stuck in my head. I'm competely infatuated, and he doesn't have a clue....

January 3rd, 2010

So today was an...interesting....yet intense day....

I woke up this morning and decided to take a risk. I texted the boy that I have a HUGE crush on and asked him to hang out. We ended up throwing paintballs at eachother and completely splatter painting ourselves all around Avery Park after enjoying some delicious hot chocolate. Then we ran around town and did errands. We went to staples, the bank, and to Bi-mart. Then Dairy Queen for food. Theenn went back to his house and cleaned up his studio. All of that was pretty much the most amazing day ever. Andy and I get along great and personally I think we'd be great together. But Andy and his girlfriend just broke up and he's not "emotionally available" right now. And I mean, I completely understand that...it's just really difficult for me. I'm absolutely crazy about this kid. UGH. Like I said...I totally understand the situation and that it's not him, or me...it's just the really shitty timing of things. I'd really like to see him and I in a relationship at some point...but who knows if that's even possible...or even if that is anything he is remotely interested in. Pretty much I'm an idiot for having emotions. Basically. I know this picture looks a lot like the one I posted a few days ago of Ashley and I, but it's the only one I managed to take today.

January 2nd, 2010

So far today I have been pretty lazy. I had the day off of work and it's been amazing. :D I definitely needed it. I'm also getting my fill of NCIS that I've been missing. Spending time with my dad has been ok too. I took a trip down to the house and measured out stuff to get some figures on how much paint we're going to need for which rooms. I've basically discovered that we're going to need to paint EVERY wall surface of that entire house. It's going to be a blast. Basically all we need to do now is get the floor in, make sure the water is all working correctly, finish the bathroom, and get the new doors on. My goal is to get in there in the last week of January and get everything into my name for February. We'll see how that goes. I haven't really talked to anyone today...I'm hoping to get to spend time with Scott before he has to go back to Alaska, but we never seem to actually get together. I'm still not sure if I have to work tomorrow...but I really don't care either way. I think tomorrow I might go into town and get a few things off of my to-do list. As well as get a price range on all of this paint. Oh, and I think I've officially decided that I need a Macbook. After spending all of this time on my Mom's I really like the photo software on it and the way the photos are organized. I might also go and get a part time job at Trader Joe's on my days off. It's not totally probable, but it will be a nice source of some additional income, and Olan Mills works on really odd hours most of the year. Anyways; Here is my photo for the day. It's a cute little broken down bus in my backyard :]

January 1st, 2010

I have decided that for the year of 2010 I am going to take at least one picture per day, every single day of the year and keep a journal/blog about it. I had a hard time struggling to decide whether or not I wanted to keep a hard copy, handwritten journal, or an online blog that everyone could read. Ultimately I decided upon a digital blog for plain and simple, simplicity. Printing out pictures and handwriting journal entries is a very time consuming process, and this just seemed easier. I do believe that periodically I will print out pictures and start keeping an album of them. So, Welcome to my first post of the year!

This morning I woke up to the wonderful and gorgeous girlfriend of mine, Ashley. The picture for today is of her and I when I dropped her off at her car. That was the last time I will see her until May, when she will come home to live with me for the summer! :] Last night was interesting...Ashley and I made leaps and bounds in our relationship, but Goose and I ended ours. It was very depressing. Ending a relationship that has been building for practically our whole lives. It's difficult being in our position. I realize that he is young and isn't ready for the same kind of commitment that I am looking for, but it is h

eartbreaking to not be in his life at all. I'm sure this is just a test in whatever is going to happen in our future, but for the time being him and I are over. I also took the time to go and have a conversation with Will and we have also agreed to stop seeing eachother. Again, he wasn't looking for the same kind of relationship I am looking for. I had to work today at the portrait studio for a few hours and that was a blast. I'm getting impatient waiting to know whether or not I'll get to keep doing this job. Although I hope I do. I love my job and it's wonderful. I can't wait to start working on the house and move in! It is going to be SO exciting to live on my own. I'm sure there will be pictures of the house in the near future.

Today was an exceptionally difficult day. January 1st was my due date for my pregnancy that I terminated when I was 16. She would have been two years old today. And that absolutely blows my mind. I called the father, Terry, last night, but he didn't answer. Typical Terry. Deep down inside I know that I made the right decision...but it never stops me from wondering how different my life would have been if I would have kept her. But everything happens for a reason...